Last week of June 2024
Today is Sunday.
And today is the last week of June.
Before stepping into June, I talked to a college app mentor. She was helping me for free with college essays and the kinds of colleges that I'd apply to. I didn't know—she would lock me in an offer.
And it was a great sales tactic.
It felt like I can't say "no."
So I told her, I'll get the second package which costs $2500+ for brainstorming, writing, and editing essays.
Deep down, I really can't afford it for now.
I said to myself that this June would be different. I'll get gigs and clients. But it turns out... I don't even have clients yet.
It's my fault.
I wasn't doing enough work.
I wasn't doing enough outreach and networking.
It's my fault.
Now I'm tasting its consequences—worry and despair.
Being desperate made me send cold outreaches that sniff neediness instead of opening up a conversation.
It's my fault.
I reflected on all my actions this month.
And some important lessons that I learned are these:
You only have now. Past doesn't exist. The future is not promised.
To be great, you have to do the same action over and over again.
If you want to be a great communicator, always read and write. Reading expands your vocabulary and knowledge. Writing sharpens your thinking.
You thought you knew a lot of things? Well, bitch, you have so many things to learn. You don't even know the deep things about history, finance, psychology, linguistics, and other things. Stop acting like you're a walking encyclopedia. Be humble.
Fasting and isotretinoin delay periods.
Trading memecoins is gambling.
You neither can't destroy nor add actions to your daily life. You can only change. If you feel like procrastinating, you need to change something.
Comparing won't get you anywhere. It won't change your tangible world. It's only in your head.